Don't panic, or get too excited for that matter, as I am not going to ask you to guess how many jelly beans are in this jar. Therefore, there is also no prize. Well, I mean there sort of is for me because I have all of these jelly beans.
The other night, my husband and I were sitting on the couch, eating from the jar. (We are not savages, we pour, as opposed to reaching in. I tell you this in the event that you stop by and we offer you a snack, so you can confidently accept.) I declared that Jelly Bellys are an interesting candy. I could tell that the look on Ken's face was less sugar rush, for sure, than intrigue about whatever fascinating proclamation was going to come out of his wife's mouth next. I gave him a brief synopsis of my thought process. He responded that it could be a blog post. I am not really sure if that statement was an attempt to keep me from discussing my thesis further with him or if he truly felt a fluff piece on sweets was what this blog needed. Either way, this post is hisMaybe it's just me...
Musings from Suburbia on a variety of everyday topics. I have realized that MANY times, it is "just me", but I always hold out hope that there are others out there who occasionally see things as I do.
Tuesday, August 5, 2025
Random, not magic, beans
Monday, July 21, 2025
It's fine. I'm fine. Everything is fine.
I'm not sure if we should count the number of times someone says "What's up?" and we answer "Good!" Often I find myself on a slight delay with my response as I spin the wheel of current situations I'm in, despite knowing full well that I am going to say something positive, or at the very least a positive adjacent, despite sarcastic, "Living the dream!"
This is not to suggest that I am embarking on a campaign to stop friendly banter. Instead, this is a warning that I'm about to tell you how, and maybe even why and what, I am.
HOW? I'm trying! Or wait, is that WHAT I'm doing? In the grand scheme of things, I'm good. I guess I am a few other things too - warm, anxious, tired and more likely than not, hungry.
WHAT? I am trying. Trying to do the things ... taking the walks, drinking the water, eating the protein, talking to whatever poor souls are within earshot, volunteering and spending time with the people who bring me joy. I am also cheerleading as the self-appointed one woman pep squad in this house. It seemed like we needed one and I saw no other names on the sign-up sheet.
I take this role seriously. My main objectives for the past few months have been to do verbal wellness checks on my husband more times than either of us probably think is necessary. I also assume that he'd rather not be alone anymore when I get home from work, so I approach him like our kids did when they were small with a lot of questions as to whether he'd like to play a game, go for a walk, take a bike ride, or go to Target. I was trying not to read my books or write my little blog posts because I wanted to appear eager to engage.
WHY? Well now here is where we take things to another level beyond grocery store produce section banter.
I'm good because I am upright and have people in my world who bring me love and joy (so maybe I'm actually great).
I am warm because this summer has brought above-normal temperatures and my body is igniting from within with hot flashes. Basically, at any point, I feel like I am walking a mere two degrees away from bursting into flames.
I am anxious, despite my anti-anxiety meds and my reluctance to increase the dose (which we can talk about another time), because I occasionally catch a news story, my husband has been out of work and searching for new employment for six months now and ... seriously, do I need to conjure more?
Tired? Is anybody not? My pompoms are wearing down to straggly ribbons.
And hungry? I mean I could eat a cookie or some chips ... ooooh, or a donut.
Well that was a loaded question, that you didn't acually ask, so how's about we wrap things up here for today?
Tuesday, July 15, 2025
You better shop around

Monday, June 9, 2025
I’m baaaaaack (and so are they)
Monday, January 6, 2025
New Year, New Chapter!
...offical sounding words like "manuscript" and "final" and boxes to check (more feelings of nauseau)...
Tuesday, December 17, 2024
A Sign That I'm Really Back
Here we are on a random Tuesday for starters, but that's not it. Oh no, far from it! The lore of the creepy monkeys started here over ten years ago, perhaps you recall some of the finest moments like this, this, this and this. I admit that it was starting to feel like those simians were a thing of the past, only to be lured back out by doing a blog post search.
But then it happened, I came around the corner at Walmart just in time to hear a woman remarking to her adult daughter about how cute a toy on the shelf was. I spun my head to see which item she was referring to, that was not even notable enough for me to photograph, then looked to the left and heard a not at all quiet voice leave my mouh saying "That monkey is creepy though!" I assured her that her assessment of cuteness was not incorrect and that I was taking issue with the neighboring box's resident.
Fur Real, Peanut, keep your 100+ reactions to yourself! Come on, look at that illustration of Peanut rising to a standing position!Noooooo, not a whole darn jungle in my pocket!
Mac and Puck keeping those creepy monkey dreams (and nightmares) alive! Curse this generation of blind bag toys though, as I could not risk the disappointment of bringing home Chatty.
Wednesday, December 11, 2024
And wow, did I know it!
I fancied myself a bit of a poet from my preteen years until my early twenties. (I believe we've gone over this a few times before, like here and here for starters.) The mid to late eighties material sits safely in the pages of my flannel fabric covered book.
The early eighties stuff though? That stuff was deemed too risky by an angsty teenager to have laying around where it could someday be found. I threw that fanciful floral covered book in the garbage. Gasp! I know there was a poem I wrote for my sister when she was a baby, and I am sure it was fantastic (insert sarcasm font), but I do not recall any other muses I had back then. Rest assured though, I am certain the quality of all of the poems was horrendous. I'm not even going to try to make myself feel better by making considerations for my young age or ambition. Instead, I was just grateful nobody would ever have to consider the material again! Unfortunately, that young girl had no sense of what joy that fodder could provide for me decades later. But then...